Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
So Sick
I am sooooo sick of being nauseous, I swear it could be used as a form of torture. It's like being stuck on a boat sea sick with no way to get off. Well I want off! August please come faster! I'm once again losing the battle of keeping the house clean, it was so nice while it lasted. It stinks and when I try to clean so it will smell better it ends up stinking like cleaner. I buy nice smelling all natural cleaners and still it makes me gag.
Oh and for fun I was double checking the spelling of nauseous just to be sure and found this quite interesting. I was always told nauseous isn't really a word so I was pleased to read this. And for the record I think that nauseated is only used more than nauseous because no one knows how to spell nauseous the right way. On the HER forums it's used a LOT and I've seen it spelled many different ways.
Oh and for fun I was double checking the spelling of nauseous just to be sure and found this quite interesting. I was always told nauseous isn't really a word so I was pleased to read this. And for the record I think that nauseated is only used more than nauseous because no one knows how to spell nauseous the right way. On the HER forums it's used a LOT and I've seen it spelled many different ways.
1 : causing nausea or disgust
: nauseating
2 : affected with nausea or disgust
— nau·seous·ly adverb
— nau·seous·ness noun
usageThose who insist that nauseous can properly be used only in sense
1 and that in sense 2 it is an error for nauseated are mistaken. Current
evidence shows these facts: nauseous is most frequently used to mean physically
affected with nausea, usually after a linking verb such as feel or become;
figurative use is quite a bit less frequent. Use of nauseous in sense 1 is much
more often figurative than literal, and this use appears to be losing ground to
nauseating. Nauseated is used more widely than nauseous in sense 2.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Bye Bye PICC
So we went to the OB today and everything is good. I gained a pound, the first weight I've gained this pregnancy, still have a bit more to gain to get to my prepregnancy weight though. And Baby Pokey's heartbeat sounded good. My OB said I have to keep the PICC line in though for longer though.
So off to the homehealth clinic we went. I got the bitchy nurse (seriously this women is so annoying.) She lectured me on how stitches should last a month and how could they have come out (this is the second time mine came undone.) I told her about how the line got yanked on and she swore that that couldn't undo them. Whatever, they were fine when I got in the shower and right after I pulled on the line it came out so I seriously doubt it was a random occurance. Anyway got the dressing off and of course it's all a mess like usual. In just 4 days I had completely broke out again from the actual PICC line and it was getting infected. I've been through every option of attachment devices they have, none of which worked and it was just getting too risky to keep it in. Everyone that saw it agreed it had to come out. And while I'm afraid of not having it I'm also soooo glad to get rid of it. So anyway now I get to try my best to stay hydrated, if I do need IV's though I can just go back to their clinic and not have to deal with the ER so that's nice. I can't wait to take a real shower again and let my arm actually heal. I got to keep the PICC line too, it can go with our collection or weird things like John's NG tube (yes I actually kept that.)
I swore with this pregnancy I'd take more pictures of myself pregnant, but up until now haven't taken any. So here's the first, 15 weeks 1 day.
So off to the homehealth clinic we went. I got the bitchy nurse (seriously this women is so annoying.) She lectured me on how stitches should last a month and how could they have come out (this is the second time mine came undone.) I told her about how the line got yanked on and she swore that that couldn't undo them. Whatever, they were fine when I got in the shower and right after I pulled on the line it came out so I seriously doubt it was a random occurance. Anyway got the dressing off and of course it's all a mess like usual. In just 4 days I had completely broke out again from the actual PICC line and it was getting infected. I've been through every option of attachment devices they have, none of which worked and it was just getting too risky to keep it in. Everyone that saw it agreed it had to come out. And while I'm afraid of not having it I'm also soooo glad to get rid of it. So anyway now I get to try my best to stay hydrated, if I do need IV's though I can just go back to their clinic and not have to deal with the ER so that's nice. I can't wait to take a real shower again and let my arm actually heal. I got to keep the PICC line too, it can go with our collection or weird things like John's NG tube (yes I actually kept that.)
I swore with this pregnancy I'd take more pictures of myself pregnant, but up until now haven't taken any. So here's the first, 15 weeks 1 day.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
No Luck
I ripped out a stitch to my PICC line again! Goodness I'm having bad luck with keeping this thing in place. Luckily I'm not having trouble with the actual line itself but still I haven't made it the full week between dressing changes in over a month now. So now I get to more stitches, seriously I feel like a pin cushion lately. This time it was my fault though, I got out of the tub and when I went to pull my plastic sleeve thing (that keeps it dry) off I didn't realize I had ahold of the line and the plastic and ended up giving the line a good pull.
Lets see updates on the kids... John loves to sing the happy birthday song and now has a new version. They were eating cookies the other day and John sang "Happy birthday, cookie!!!" he's been sining it constantly since then. He loves his cookies for sure.
Bella's newest thing is adding "all day long" to the end of whatever she says. "I peed in the potty all day long" and "I ate my chicken all day long." This morning when Corey got out of the shower she announced "Daddy showered all day long."
I think we're gonna hold off on John starting daycare for awhile. There's so much I'd rather spend that money on right now, like medical bills. I've planned the timing of this pregnancy for so long so that we'd get it all in one year and only pay the deductible once and hit the out of pocket max. But now Corey is switching jobs and in 3 months we'll have to do the deductible on a new insurance, after already hitting our out of pocket on the old. I'm not happy about this but it's really the only down side to the new job. Also this way flu season will end before he starts and hopefully we can avoid some nasty germs too.
Lets see updates on the kids... John loves to sing the happy birthday song and now has a new version. They were eating cookies the other day and John sang "Happy birthday, cookie!!!" he's been sining it constantly since then. He loves his cookies for sure.
Bella's newest thing is adding "all day long" to the end of whatever she says. "I peed in the potty all day long" and "I ate my chicken all day long." This morning when Corey got out of the shower she announced "Daddy showered all day long."
I think we're gonna hold off on John starting daycare for awhile. There's so much I'd rather spend that money on right now, like medical bills. I've planned the timing of this pregnancy for so long so that we'd get it all in one year and only pay the deductible once and hit the out of pocket max. But now Corey is switching jobs and in 3 months we'll have to do the deductible on a new insurance, after already hitting our out of pocket on the old. I'm not happy about this but it's really the only down side to the new job. Also this way flu season will end before he starts and hopefully we can avoid some nasty germs too.
Friday, February 22, 2008
14 Weeks 5 Days
So I think the cause of the recent increase in nausea can be blamed on the fact that I still have no safe food. That small amount I can handle to eat is very needed and now I have close to nothing and it's making things soooo much worse. I have been enjoying carnation instant breakfasts in the morning (this will make my OB very happy) but after that things just go downhill. I really didn't think it could get much worse but I was wrong. I can't increase any of my meds because they all (except the Zofran) cause drowsiness and I have to be awake to take care of the kids. Plus with my horrible insomnia if I nap during the day then I'm up all night and then can't get up with the kids the next morning. And Zofran does absolutely nothing for the nausea so increasing that would only increase it's side effects with no benefits.
My PICC line is still an issue. One of the stitches on it popped out yesterday so we went to get it fixed. And while there's not PICC holder for my skin to react to anymore I'm now reacting to the PICC line itself touching my skin. So they pulled the other stitch out and stitched it in to the other side. Then the line would bleed back so they flushed it with TPA and I think that took care of that. The nurse said I really need to start drinking more because it really needs to come out (if only it was as simple as that.) Anyway I see the OB on Monday and then I think our big ultrasound should be 3 weeks later. Hopefully our ultrasound tech this time will have a brain and not spill the beans on the gender. I plan to tell everyone we see that day that we do NOT want to know what it is.
We found a daycare center for John. I talked to several people about it, including his speech therapist and someone from church that teaches at another center and almost took a job at the one we chose, and everyone highly recommended it. Corey went and took a tour too and really liked it. So if all goes as planned he'll start around March 3.
My PICC line is still an issue. One of the stitches on it popped out yesterday so we went to get it fixed. And while there's not PICC holder for my skin to react to anymore I'm now reacting to the PICC line itself touching my skin. So they pulled the other stitch out and stitched it in to the other side. Then the line would bleed back so they flushed it with TPA and I think that took care of that. The nurse said I really need to start drinking more because it really needs to come out (if only it was as simple as that.) Anyway I see the OB on Monday and then I think our big ultrasound should be 3 weeks later. Hopefully our ultrasound tech this time will have a brain and not spill the beans on the gender. I plan to tell everyone we see that day that we do NOT want to know what it is.
We found a daycare center for John. I talked to several people about it, including his speech therapist and someone from church that teaches at another center and almost took a job at the one we chose, and everyone highly recommended it. Corey went and took a tour too and really liked it. So if all goes as planned he'll start around March 3.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Stuck!
About half of the time we get John up in the morning and one of his arms will be pulled out the neck of his shirt. He still sucks his thumb and still grabs his shirt as a blankie when he does it which is what causes this. I actually went in to check on him last night before I went to bed and had to pull his arm out. This morning though as soon as I opened his door he yelled "stuck! stuck!" and this is what I found. Definitely the first time he's done this.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
2nd Trimester
Yay, no more 1st trimester. Definitely happy to say goodbye to it. And yesterday marked exactly 6 months away from my due date, sure sounds like a lot longer when you put it that way though. Last week was really bad, the nausea was out of control. And I usually find a new food when my old one stops working but that hasn't happened this time. I'm suddenly without any safe food and can't figure out what to do. Just trying to make things work enough to eat something everyday.
I did manage to get the house clean finally, it only took 3 days and all of my energy. But it is so nice to see it clean again. I just wonder how long it will last this time.
I did manage to get the house clean finally, it only took 3 days and all of my energy. But it is so nice to see it clean again. I just wonder how long it will last this time.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Another crappy day
Oh today was not good. I woke up really late (not that I had to get up and be anywhere though) and luckily the kids just played quietly in their rooms until I got up. I had a horrible headache and just felt bad. Corey came home early because we had to get to the homehealth clinic and a storm was coming so we left early.
So we got there fine and my dressing was a mess again. I keep reacting really bad to the device they use to hold the PICC line in place (then another dressing goes over the top of all of it.) They've tried everything now and I was on the last type available. It got put on Monday and now less than 48 hours later my arm had totally broken out from it. There's hardly any good skin left to put the PICC now and since we're out of attachment devices to use they sewed it into place today. The whole thing looks gross now.
Then came the drive home, I was totally nauseous to begin with and it was snowing and the roads were a mess. We literally drove 5 mph the whole way home in stop and go traffic. It took 2 and a half hours. Definitely not good for the nausea at all, I was just trying my best not to puke everywhere. And it was cold but the heater just made me more sick so I had my window half down with the snow coming in. Have I mentioned that it only snows on days we have to go to the clinic, it crazy.
Of course immediately after my last post the sushi phase ended. I'm craving avacados now but not sure how I want to eat them yet. Really nothing else sounds good and my nausea is increasing so that makes things harder. I did have pizza tonight and it was really good, but that certainly won't be a real safe food as the thought even now makes me gag. Oh and John is losing weight again, I'm sure he's fallen off the growth chart totally now. He's been picky about food again, but he's at least drinking really well. Need to get him some pediasure (if only it didn't cost so much.)
So we got there fine and my dressing was a mess again. I keep reacting really bad to the device they use to hold the PICC line in place (then another dressing goes over the top of all of it.) They've tried everything now and I was on the last type available. It got put on Monday and now less than 48 hours later my arm had totally broken out from it. There's hardly any good skin left to put the PICC now and since we're out of attachment devices to use they sewed it into place today. The whole thing looks gross now.
Then came the drive home, I was totally nauseous to begin with and it was snowing and the roads were a mess. We literally drove 5 mph the whole way home in stop and go traffic. It took 2 and a half hours. Definitely not good for the nausea at all, I was just trying my best not to puke everywhere. And it was cold but the heater just made me more sick so I had my window half down with the snow coming in. Have I mentioned that it only snows on days we have to go to the clinic, it crazy.
Of course immediately after my last post the sushi phase ended. I'm craving avacados now but not sure how I want to eat them yet. Really nothing else sounds good and my nausea is increasing so that makes things harder. I did have pizza tonight and it was really good, but that certainly won't be a real safe food as the thought even now makes me gag. Oh and John is losing weight again, I'm sure he's fallen off the growth chart totally now. He's been picky about food again, but he's at least drinking really well. Need to get him some pediasure (if only it didn't cost so much.)
Monday, February 11, 2008
Busy Day
I hate Mondays. Today was so long and stressful. The neighbors stupid dog barked for hours waking me up (I'm getting so sick of that dog.) Then John had speech therapy which went really well. A student came along today to observe and Bella LOVED that because she got lots of special attention from her. John's doing really well with speech and is finally cooperating with us during her visits. He can identify all of his major body parts now too.
Then I had an OB appointment. It also went well. My weight stayed the same, no loss so I don't have to get a feeding tube. I actually considered putting rocks in my pocket to add weight, lol. So we keeping everything as is for now, I still would love to get rid of the PICC though. Then we went to get my PICC dressing changed. My arm is getting worse and the rash is starting to get dangerously close to the insertion site, not good. So I'm going back Wednesday to get it changed again and if it's any closer they're going to switch to a gauze dressing (which makes me a little nervous really) and that would have to be changed daily meaning Corey would have to learn to do it.
Bella was something else at the homehealth clinic, she sat right next to me and talked to the nurse the whole time. She seriously didn't stop talking for more than a second and she talked about EVERYTHING. She had a toy lion with her so first she identified every body part of the lion. Somehow we got to John has a penis, and daddy does too. Then I have privates (while she points them out.) Then she talked about her nipples, mommy's boobies and many other things. She told about how John threw up on his jammers and she threw up on her pillow. The nurse and I just sat there laughing and Bella just kept whipping it out.
One thing about this pregnancy remains the same as my others (other than being sick) and that is my safe food trends. Meaning what foods I can actually eat, and while the foods aren't the same the pattern is. I can eat one thing (and usually only one thing) for about a week, during that week it's great and yummy and doesn't make me sick. Then suddenly it becomes evil, the thought of it makes me gag and I don't touch it again (although sometimes they come back.) A few weeks ago it was cheese, last week lasagna and now sushi. Seriously who would have thought sushi (nothing raw of course because I don't do raw anything) but I am loving my sushi. I'm eating all I can tolerate because I'm sure it won't last too long, and I really like it.
Then I had an OB appointment. It also went well. My weight stayed the same, no loss so I don't have to get a feeding tube. I actually considered putting rocks in my pocket to add weight, lol. So we keeping everything as is for now, I still would love to get rid of the PICC though. Then we went to get my PICC dressing changed. My arm is getting worse and the rash is starting to get dangerously close to the insertion site, not good. So I'm going back Wednesday to get it changed again and if it's any closer they're going to switch to a gauze dressing (which makes me a little nervous really) and that would have to be changed daily meaning Corey would have to learn to do it.
Bella was something else at the homehealth clinic, she sat right next to me and talked to the nurse the whole time. She seriously didn't stop talking for more than a second and she talked about EVERYTHING. She had a toy lion with her so first she identified every body part of the lion. Somehow we got to John has a penis, and daddy does too. Then I have privates (while she points them out.) Then she talked about her nipples, mommy's boobies and many other things. She told about how John threw up on his jammers and she threw up on her pillow. The nurse and I just sat there laughing and Bella just kept whipping it out.
One thing about this pregnancy remains the same as my others (other than being sick) and that is my safe food trends. Meaning what foods I can actually eat, and while the foods aren't the same the pattern is. I can eat one thing (and usually only one thing) for about a week, during that week it's great and yummy and doesn't make me sick. Then suddenly it becomes evil, the thought of it makes me gag and I don't touch it again (although sometimes they come back.) A few weeks ago it was cheese, last week lasagna and now sushi. Seriously who would have thought sushi (nothing raw of course because I don't do raw anything) but I am loving my sushi. I'm eating all I can tolerate because I'm sure it won't last too long, and I really like it.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
13 Weeks!!!
13 Weeks today, yay. One more week and I can say goodbye to the 1st trimester, I can't wait. I go see the OB tomorrow and hopefully I haven't lost anymore weight. I want to ditch the PICC line so bad, I hate it with a passion and I don't think more weight loss would get me closer to that. I can finally drink Coke again, it's the best thing ever. And I really need the calories too so that's even better. Oh and orange juice is also good now as well. Before all I could have was plain bubbly water so a little change is nice. And I am eating a little bit more, still just two small (okay really small) meals a day but any improvement is good.
John got sick Friday night and puked ALL over his bed, just when I thought we had made it out of the sickness. But luckily he didn't puke continuously like Bella did, just the once. Then he was all whiny and crabby for a few hours. They're both totally back to normal now. I'm enjoying Sunday morning in a quiet house while everyone is at church.
Corey's hopefully getting a new job (just waiting on the final details) which will mean more money. When he starts John is going to daycare. It's been a hard decision to make really. Dealing with the germs and sickies of it all. And then which kid to send (because both would cost too much.) If I had to pick just one to keep home it'd be Bella, but if I had to pick just one to send it'd also be Bella because she would LOVE it. In the end we picked John though. Just me and Bella during the day will me much easier on me, seriously she is so easy (if only she could clean.) And also John has a stronger immune system than Bella does, she gets sick more than him and always gets sicker than him with everything. We're hoping that will at least make the germs more managable. John really needs to learn more social skills too. I hope it works out because I can't keep watching them both myself, even with the hg getting a little bit better it's continuing to get harder to watch them. And bedrest lies in the future.
John got sick Friday night and puked ALL over his bed, just when I thought we had made it out of the sickness. But luckily he didn't puke continuously like Bella did, just the once. Then he was all whiny and crabby for a few hours. They're both totally back to normal now. I'm enjoying Sunday morning in a quiet house while everyone is at church.
Corey's hopefully getting a new job (just waiting on the final details) which will mean more money. When he starts John is going to daycare. It's been a hard decision to make really. Dealing with the germs and sickies of it all. And then which kid to send (because both would cost too much.) If I had to pick just one to keep home it'd be Bella, but if I had to pick just one to send it'd also be Bella because she would LOVE it. In the end we picked John though. Just me and Bella during the day will me much easier on me, seriously she is so easy (if only she could clean.) And also John has a stronger immune system than Bella does, she gets sick more than him and always gets sicker than him with everything. We're hoping that will at least make the germs more managable. John really needs to learn more social skills too. I hope it works out because I can't keep watching them both myself, even with the hg getting a little bit better it's continuing to get harder to watch them. And bedrest lies in the future.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
She's feeling better
So we survived the last 24 hours. Bella is doing better today (our washing machine is finally getting a break) she's still pretty out of it but starting to play a little bit. And as of now no one else has caught the bug. If only HG lasted just 24 hours, I'd have a ton of kids!
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
My worst fear
Vomit. Vomiting kids has got to be by far the worst part of being a parent. Sure other things suck or drive me crazy but vomit I just can't stand. So Bella puked every 5-10 minutes non-stop from the end of her nap until she finally crashed about half an hour ago. I always hate stomach bugs in the house but with HG, this is seriously one of my worst fears (HG plus the stomach flu.) I'm terrified, that she'll keep puking, that I'll get it, that Corey will get it. And of course John too, because at least Bella knows how to puke into the toilet, John on the other hand doesn't have as much experience. It's also a good reminder that even if I could afford to put the kids in daycare (which I can't) I'm not sure I'd want to. One virus after another for weeks on end, totally not something I can handle right now.
On a cute note we found out this morning that Bella thought we had left Baby Pokey at the hospital yesterday. So cute, she was quite relieved to find out that Baby Pokey is still in Mommy's tummy.
On a cute note we found out this morning that Bella thought we had left Baby Pokey at the hospital yesterday. So cute, she was quite relieved to find out that Baby Pokey is still in Mommy's tummy.
Monday, February 04, 2008
Baby Pokey
So we had an ultrasound today. Everyone enjoyed seeing Baby Pokey. My skin is finally rebelling against all the tape from my PICC line dressing, I'm honestly surprised it took so long considering I usually get a rash just from bandaids. I don't think I'll make it a whole week before needing the dressing changed again, it's only been a few hours and it's already coming off because the skin is broken and leaking, yuck. I just want to rip is all off and scratch the snot out of it all, it's really itchy.
Anyway here's a picture, the quality of the pics we got really sucks but it's better than nothing.
Anyway here's a picture, the quality of the pics we got really sucks but it's better than nothing.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
A Haircut
John finally got a haircut. He was NOT happy about it at the time though. He threw a huge fit when Corey put him in the chair (and it was the fun airplane chair at the kiddy place too) and screamed through the first half. But with the help of candy and watching a movie he calmed down and did okay at the end. Last time we took him in he sat there perfectly.
And John went to church today too and for the first time ever stayed in nursery without freaking out. So I got 3 hours of quiet at home while everyone was gone. Wish I could have gone too but the empty house sure was nice.
Before:
After:
And John went to church today too and for the first time ever stayed in nursery without freaking out. So I got 3 hours of quiet at home while everyone was gone. Wish I could have gone too but the empty house sure was nice.
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After:
Saturday, February 02, 2008
I'm Fat!!!
Yep I've lost over 10 pounds and somehow I still got fat. I guess there's really a baby in there after all. I can't remember if my stomach started showing this early with John but I'm pretty sure it didn't. The kid's not even 2 inches long yet so what exactly is "showing" I'm not really sure. Just looks fat to me. I'll be 12 weeks on Sunday, finally feels like I'm getting somewhere. Two more weeks and I'll be in the 2nd trimester (where I'll get to enjoy some other fun pregnancy complications.)
Oh and before I forget again (Corey keeps bugging me to put this on the blog) Bella has a new thing where "happy" is the opposit of all things bad. We ask "Bella do you want to go to bed?" and then she yells "NO, I not sleepy.....I'm HAPPY!!!" And she loves to pretend play with her toys and repeat conversations we've had recently, I heard her in her room the other day playing and she said "no, you're not scared... you're Happy."
And I can't recall if I posted about this or not but John now sings. He likes to sing "We are the champions" and can do the first verse of "twinkle twinkle little star." That's right, just put two words together for the first time but can do a full verse of a song (well he sings about every other word after the twinkle twinkle part.) He is really growing up fast lately, just the way he jabbers now (which he never even did before) but you can tell his thinking has matured. And today for the first time he fell down and got hurt and went running to Bella crying for hugs. Usually he goes straight to me or Corey, but Bella hugged him and made it all better.
Oh and before I forget again (Corey keeps bugging me to put this on the blog) Bella has a new thing where "happy" is the opposit of all things bad. We ask "Bella do you want to go to bed?" and then she yells "NO, I not sleepy.....I'm HAPPY!!!" And she loves to pretend play with her toys and repeat conversations we've had recently, I heard her in her room the other day playing and she said "no, you're not scared... you're Happy."
And I can't recall if I posted about this or not but John now sings. He likes to sing "We are the champions" and can do the first verse of "twinkle twinkle little star." That's right, just put two words together for the first time but can do a full verse of a song (well he sings about every other word after the twinkle twinkle part.) He is really growing up fast lately, just the way he jabbers now (which he never even did before) but you can tell his thinking has matured. And today for the first time he fell down and got hurt and went running to Bella crying for hugs. Usually he goes straight to me or Corey, but Bella hugged him and made it all better.
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